Today's Inspiration

A New (but familiar) Inspiration!

I just stumbled on another artist I really like: Stella Im Hultberg! Her work reminds me a little of Stina Persson's. I think its because she uses watercolors...at least that's what it looks like, not sure though. I seem to have an attraction to watercolor art lately. Probably b/c I have no skill in that medium whatsoever, so it fascinates me to a certain extent.

I also found it helpful to look at her sketch book. I've been having a hard time getting myself to draw lately. Its like I need someone to tell me "draw this" or I need a picture to look at in order to draw something, otherwise I end up with just a bunch of doodles that look like a kid did them at the bus stop. Its discouraging. So, I think I will try to take what I've seen on stella's site and use it in my own practice. I will turn my sketch book into a journal and jot down words or phrases that come to mind throughout the day, then draw inspiration from them later. Hopefully it will help me to develop a style of my own.

Those Who Can't Do...

I came home from my counseling session the other day saying "I wish I could just make art for a living." And BF said, "why don't you?"

"I won't make any money and I am not about to be a starving artist. I'm not about to be a starving anything." I said.
"Yeah, but you could get another job to make money while you make art." He responded.
"I just want to be Drew Barrymore in 50 First Dates, painting and singing and happy." I said.
"She's a teacher in that movie. You could be an art teacher. Then you would always be doing art." He argued.

Since that conversation I've had that image in my head of what it would be like if I was an art teacher. I've been picturing myself walking around the art room at my old highschool... I can see myself doing it. But is it really what I want to do? I've never ever been interested in teaching and don't think I'd have the patience for it. But when I think of the benefits...I'd have Summers and Holidays off... and my whole life would revolve around being creative. It seems like it would be exactly what I've been wanting. Right? ...Or is it a cop out? I can't manage to do anything else so why not go into teaching right? And art teachers are always flaky and weird so it would be perfect for me! Ha... You know what they say, "Those you can do. Those who can't teach."

Quote of the Day

There is no abstract art. You must always start with something. Afterward you can remove all traces of reality. - Pablo Picasso

Picturing My Future

I'm having a hard time figuring out if I should just let love take its course or if I'm holding out for something more. I think it might help to create a visual interpretation of what it is I picture when I picture my ideal man. What am I missing? What haven't I had before? I haven't dated a man who is successful and has money. I haven't dated a man who is spontaneous and adventurous. I guess I just really want to be spoiled and exposed to the good life and for some reason I need a man to do that for me.

Lesson 2

My counseling session last night went very well. We analyzed my collages on love and loneliness. Then the discussion came to the topic of goals and how I feel like I've never reached a goal I set in my life...ever. I did admit that I made a new years resolution this year to be true to myself and that by breaking off my engagement and that relationship I feel like I've accomplished that resolution. She said, "Well, there you go and its only March! That's good! Its a good start." So, my homework this week is to set several goals that I think I can achieve. A couple each day, a couple each week, and 1 bigger one for the whole month. It will be nice to actually know that I've achieved something instead of always feeling like I've failed.

Homework 1: Key Emotions (Loved)

Infatuation, Fascination, Adoration ...love.